My friend, my hero.
I love you, karen.
nostalgic burn
me finding me. again.
http://www.fawcettsociety.org.uk/index.asp?PageID=445
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zyv2n8NwtC0&feature=youtube_gdata_player
Foxes on trampolines are this year’s owls.
How do you break up with a friend. Seriously…. help me. Is there anybody out there?
things that make me cry
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HMrqBldlqzA
thoughts that i know i live in an imaginary world and that as many times as i listen to it, no one will love me specifically for liking it.
that beans would eat my body if i died and she was hungry.
i’m talking to a friend who is going through something that
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5HPCcxBifKo
says enough……
oh beans
i love you so.
even though you are totally freaking me out about your random barking at the door. quit it, im just trying to play rock band (guitar AND singing, i don’t cheat).
anyway, this is about you. i’ve been thinking….
watch this. (also, you are still barking, and it’s TOTALLY freaking me out)….
so, yeah, today when we were just hanging out. like a second ago, i thought about this movie.
and then i realized that if that situation ever happened in real life, YOU WOULD EAT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Without even a second, sympathetic thought….
YOU WOULD EAT ME TO SURVIVE.
at least you are awesome, and i hope addy survives… and you share.
dogs.
the internet is amazing- I made you a mix.
listen to some music with me.
i’m raging and i can’t sleep and i have my ipod on.
Chumming the Ocean - Archers of Loaf
It’s crazy how I’ve neglected music recently. I forget to take the ipod most of the time and the tapes I have do not date past 2000. Otherwise I don’t listen to music, but in the chance occasion I do… my whole existence seems to pass through me.
It’s crazy to feel inspired when you haven’t felt that way in almost a decade.
Your Cave - Black Heart Procession and Slobakken
I’m not too familiar with this song, and it’s whatever Slobakken is on vocals… but Black Heart Procession will always remind me of DC, and leaving to catch the metro only to find that it doesn’t run past midnight, and being stuck alone in a strange city. We found a cab that reeked of marijuana and sounded like jazz and we were almost killed on a highway heading somewhere on a guess. We lied and said we couldn’t pay the $50. I thought the car was stolen. We laughed at how stupid the entire night way.
One of the best nights we had together.
Grey Skies - The Electric Banana
I know nothing about this song, but it’s great to listen to. Also- Youtube seriously can find any song.
Grab It - Dinosaur Jr.
This is high school. This reminds me of joey d. art class. Formative periods in life. Nothing else mattered, and i was getting way too emotionally attached to music and moments. I saved everything from this part of my life. I thought I was documenting something special. I figured my friends and I would stay together forever.
You Oughta Know- Das Racist
Diggin on this right now. Mixes used to be so important. I spent way too much time deciding what songs should go on, and which shouldn’t, what needed explanation, what didn’t… but the best fade ins counted…
Jane - Elf Power
Elf power always makes me think of Athens, Ga. I’ve never lived out of Ohio. I love it here. The only place I ever truly considered moving to was Athens, GA. A huge amount of my love, and my being is in this city. It’s a weird connection, but it’s mine and that comforts me.
I’m lonely right now, and there is no real reason for that. I miss writing like this. I miss truly appreciating things.
Bread and Roses- Let My Words Not Be In Rhyme
Lately I have felt embarrassed about being passionate about things. I became apathetic towards everything. It makes me really sad. Why am I so worried about being emotional about things? I liked myself the most when I was comfortable with expressing myself. I am not sure why I ever let that go.
I need to better myself. I need to spend more time expressing what is going on inside my head rather than pushing it aside.
I never should have stopped writing everything down. I wrote to make sure I would never forget what made me love my friends, family and life. I never forgot moments, and if I did I would be able to look back on them. When I stopped writing, and started drinking, I would forget. I barely remember the last 5 years.
3 years in this life. 7 in that other. 7 in the one before. the rest was childhood.
this isnt where I thought i would be.
On Fire - Lightning Bolt
Crossing the border with a trunk full of toliet paper. Driving all night to come home to a leaking ceiling.
moved to coventry after that. little things… little moments.
i started playing MMOs there. That was a downfall.
HACKED
apparently, someone or someBOT hacked into my tumblr! I’m sorry everyone!!!
I have been meaning to write some blogs, but I just have not gotten around to it lately.
it’s the future already.
I stopped writing because I watched Do The Right Thing (Lee, 1989) and I can’t really think of anything to say about it. Not to say that it isn’t an amazing movie… it’s just that I watched it for the first time since I was 16, and my opinion hadn’t changed. I feel like I’m taking the easy road out by just saying “i have nothing to say”. Although, even if I came up with some conversational aspects, who would I even be sharing them with?
I have a few other topics I would like to write about, but I can’t seem to get past this. So, I will poke around the internet and try and make some interesting points.
well, one - everyone should see this movie. I don’t want my current blase attitude to turn anyone off to this movie.
two- Wikipedia (my favorite NON source of information) classifies this movie as a “Dramedy” (yawn). It was written, directed, produced and ACTED by Spike Lee.
This is important:
“The film was a commercial success and received numerous accolades and awards, including an Academy Award nomination for Lee for Best Original Screenplay. It is commonly listed among the greatest films of all time. In 1999, it was deemed to be “culturally significant” by the U.S. Library of Congress, and was selected for preservation in the National Film Registry, one of just five films to have this honor in their first year of eligibility.” (Wikipedia)
Basically, it’s really freaking hot in Brooklyn. Tension is already all over the neighborhood, which is racially diverse. Mookie (Spike Lee) works as a delivery guy for Sal’s restaurant. Sal is Italian, and he has two sons that also work at the shop. One of them is outwardly racist, the other is sort of pals with Mookie. That causes tension within the shop. Making it even worse, one of Mookie’s friends, Buggin’ Out, comes in and complains that there are no black people featured in the pictures on the walls.
Outside the shop, the racial tension has been building between so many different groups of people, but once Buggin’ Out star
ts boycotting the shop, the shit goes crazy. By the time the day is over, a riot ensues and there are tragic consequences that I don’t want to spoil for you, dear reader/viewer.
This movie is incredibly “in-your-face” and filled with Lee’s signature cinematic angles and soliloquies. It is shocking and realistic. It is painful, yet can be humorous.
There.
Oh yeah, even though he plays a massive asshole in this movie, I love John Turturro.
I seem to be suffering from insomnia, which is really upsetting me. I haven’t had a good night’s sleep since wednesday. I had a crazy weekend involving too much drinking, which normally makes for an exhausted me. However, I could not sleep AT ALL last night, and although I was up for work at 6:45 and have been going non-stop since that time, and I feel tired, I can’t fall asleep.
Things are on my mind, of course, but not the stuff I want to blog about.
Also - I have a mash up of “party rock anthem” and the two newest britney songs constantly playing in my head.
Here, let me share some of it:
I have more to write about. I read about 5 books this month and I wanted to list them, but I am brain dead. I also feel like I almost need to rewatch the other movie I need to write about, but I think I can make do. I’ll do that tomorrow or something.
On a… note:
I have been feeling pretty good (mentally) lately. I love my friends and my family, which in my head is one in the same. I had a wonderful weekend, and am feeling loved and i am SLIGHTLY loving myself, which is a miracle. I hope I can hold on to this for a while!
When you are lonely, learn to experience your loneliness as one of many human emotions. Don’t flee from it, don’t grab on to it, don’t label it bad; just let it be.
